Change

I wrote this last week and forgot to post it, sorry I haven’t posted anything recently, my life has been pretty busy and amazing, but here it tis:  It’s funny how even the smallest things in life, the things you or others may think are less important, turn out to be in full, truly important.  Such as the small things in my life, the things that I don’t think others should care about, that I’ve never really given much thought to.  They’re the things about me that the common person could and will judge, it’s just that I don’t think people would actually care about my problems, except it turns out that my problems are what I need to change because they changed me…I just need to be a better person.  A lot of people now days, especially teenagers, have an issue with their self-esteem.  I’m not talking about the stuck up kids who want to be “popular” because they think they’re everything, they’re perfect, and there’s nothing wrong with their appearance:  I’m talking about the “normal”, the average kids.  The point is that everyone has flaws whether we want to acknowledge them or not, even the people who think there is absolutely nothing wrong with them.  I admit that I have MANY flaws that I need to change, that I WILL change and nothing can get in my way of achieving that goal.  It’s not just that I’m changing for myself, but I’m also changing for others:  for the people around me that I hurt because of how I act, which would be depressing.  I’ve learned that even if one person is depressed, it actually starts to effect the people around them and that is why I’m changing, I need to treat others and myself better because…well because I matter, I am important and I can’t keep telling myself that I’m not, nobody should tell themselves that.  All I know is that I’m going to change and I WILL be a better person because all that matters is being happy and I can’t be happy if the majority of the time I hate myself.