Q: Do You Fear Death?

A: To be honest, I don’t know if I do or not.  Like I guess it depends on how I’m feeling but when I think of it, I guess I do and yet I don’t at the same time.  I don’t because I know it’s just a part of life and when you’re born every second you get older, therefore every second you’re getting older and closer to death.  I know that’s sort of a negative way to look at it, but that’s how I keep myself from thinking that it’s not such a horrible thing.  I do fear it because I know that everyone has a purpose for being created and I’m not sure that I’ll be able to accomplish what I’m meant to because right now I just feel like a nobody.  But there’s always this weird thing that happens to me that makes me fear it.  It’s like every time I do something, like no matter what it tis, I see my death.  It’s obviously not my real death, but I see myself dying.  For example, if I’m walking up the steps at school, I always see myself falling down the steps and my head being smashed in with blood everywhere and that makes my stomach feel all queasy.  That happens with almost everything though.  So to answer the question, I do fear death but sometimes I think it’s a part of life and if I died then that was my destiny so I have no reason to fear it.  But majority of me does fear it.